Little Men
Mood:  mischievious

I mentioned feeling let down in my last entry. One thing adding to that is the book I am currently reading, Little Men by Louisa May Alcott.

Maybe it is my fault for seeing the movie before reading the book, but I am finding the book disappointing. The Warner Brothers movie made it seem like the book was all about this tough guy named Dan, and how he was supposed to be trying to be good but never quite was. I like characters like that. Especially when it is played by a cute guy.

The book is more about the boys at Plumfield in general, with a few incidents about Dan but mostly he is becoming good. My mom would say that was a good thing. I'm not my mom though. I like the bad guys.

Not the really bad ones, but the ones who maybe swear a bit and pull funny pranks (as long as they aren't on me!) and don't always do as they should, but overall aren't really bad either.

There is a guy in my class who is kinda like that. He's very nice, but he doesn't always do his homework and he has several piercings in his ear, in his eyes there is always some mischief and he's the first to call out some teasing remark. He's even done that to me in front of the whole class, but then he smiles and has the best grin that never fails to make me melt. I can't help it!

The world needs people like him though, doesn't it? Otherwise, if everyone were saintly wouldn't life be mundane?

Feeling Blue
Mood:  blue

Talk around the place is depressing. It seems no one is happy with the work and is trying to make the load even less. Coaches included.

I know I'm a horrible example, as I've been such a slacker since joining. But with me it is different. I want to do more. I can do more. But why bother? I just don't feel the motivation like I used to feel at my old gym. I have no routines to practice and that makes me less anxious to practice. The others have routines, and goals and things to look forward to competition-wise. I have nothing. I'm bored.

I don't know how to create my own routines. I asked for help when I joined, but haven't received any. I haven't had any communication with the coach since before I officially joined, actually. They must not be kidding when they say they are busy. Or maybe I'm just not worth the attention. No, I think they are just busy. I haven't noticed anyone else really getting much attention either.

I feel like crying. I really was excited about coming here, and am so disappointed at the let down.

Workout Today
Mood:  blue

Workout today was awful! It was seriously as if I had never done gymnastics before! I kept falling down, even on simple things! Bars was a nightmare - even more than usual! I fell on one release attempt and landed hard on the back edge of my butt, which hurt so much. My back is still aching.

Gotta go ice,

'Mantha

Changing Gyms
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: something classical

I made it! I'm going to now be training at Cascade Locks! YES!!! I'm very excited about this. I hope I can do well... As you well know, I am far from being a good gymnast. I think I made it in by the skin of my teeth! But I did make it, so I hope that's a good omen.

- Samantha